Painful as it is I have finally learnt to say NO!
I was invited recently to to be a part of the setting up a of new school to replace mine at the local cultural centre but I finally found the strength to decline this and let go.
Having worked for years to set up a successful Sunday school offering Hindi Language classes and cultural experience to the children of the South Asian Community, I was faced with a difficult decision to give this baby away to another purely because help had arrived too late. After years of appealing I finally had a team of parents and volunteers ready and willing to show commitment & support in the running of the school but sadly their offer of help came too late for me. My energies depleted, my body weak & tired, I could not follow the cry of my heart to say YES!
It is too painful for me now to watch this baby being torn from my arms and my dreams and ambitions for it become those of another. But that is the way it was meant to be and I have to find the grace to let go. The school had been a labour of love, invested in heavily with money, resources and countless sleepless nights. But now I must console myself with the fact that it has laid a foundation for the future and younger more energetic and ambitious hands will carry on the work of building upon it.
So today I am painfully but sensibly saying 'No' because it is hard to see your child brought up by another and no matter how much it thrives, there will still be a pang that you could have done more.
As a dear friend advised me recently, after a Reiki session. I have 'proven' and must 'release.'
So sadly dear friends and supporters I must announce the closure of Ankur Hindi School at HCS but please do watch this space because there will soon be news of the new school and its future development.
Please don't give up on Hindi language - a language of culture, of heritage and of poetry.
I was invited recently to to be a part of the setting up a of new school to replace mine at the local cultural centre but I finally found the strength to decline this and let go.
Having worked for years to set up a successful Sunday school offering Hindi Language classes and cultural experience to the children of the South Asian Community, I was faced with a difficult decision to give this baby away to another purely because help had arrived too late. After years of appealing I finally had a team of parents and volunteers ready and willing to show commitment & support in the running of the school but sadly their offer of help came too late for me. My energies depleted, my body weak & tired, I could not follow the cry of my heart to say YES!
It is too painful for me now to watch this baby being torn from my arms and my dreams and ambitions for it become those of another. But that is the way it was meant to be and I have to find the grace to let go. The school had been a labour of love, invested in heavily with money, resources and countless sleepless nights. But now I must console myself with the fact that it has laid a foundation for the future and younger more energetic and ambitious hands will carry on the work of building upon it.
So today I am painfully but sensibly saying 'No' because it is hard to see your child brought up by another and no matter how much it thrives, there will still be a pang that you could have done more.
As a dear friend advised me recently, after a Reiki session. I have 'proven' and must 'release.'
So sadly dear friends and supporters I must announce the closure of Ankur Hindi School at HCS but please do watch this space because there will soon be news of the new school and its future development.
Please don't give up on Hindi language - a language of culture, of heritage and of poetry.
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