This final chapter is dedicated to the many readers I have met recently face to face who have been so generous and warm in their praise and encouragement.
Allow me a little philosophical ramble.
For some days now I have been toying with the idea of making peace with my greatest enemy. arch-rival and protagonist in my current demise. It has been a cause for much investigation and analysis but, in the words of my childhood hero the truth is 'elementary my dear Watson.' It has been long in coming but I finally sit face to face in a meeting with the one person who has single-handedly re-shaped my life. I meet this person with no malice or animosity, fear or recrimination. I bear in my heart just the warm feeling of recognition and happily reach out a hand of friendship.
This person is none other than myself. Yes, I am Moriarty! ( I refer the uninitiated to The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes)
We spend sleepless hours looking for someone or something to hold responsible for all that has gone wrong in our lives, all the plans undone, the dreams shattered. We may give the accused the name of an individual, of fate and even of GOD. Surely,there has to a single cause for our woes that can be blamed for the chaos and disappointment we find ourselves facing!? But as I stand and look around myself today, I see no-one else to blame - No more reason to complain - Merely much to be thankful for and to celebrate.
I am struggling to find the words to describe this discovery but find myself drawn to the simplest and most over-used of them all and that is LOVE.
It has been said that in order to be loved by others you must first love yourself. Not in a narcissistic way but as person who is aware of the good within them and is confident of their power to do good.
I have found that in order to devote any more time and energy to my recovery I need to believe in myself again. Yes even to forgive and to love myself again.
I have discovered over the past 5 months of my journey of recovery from the stroke on 28th April 2014 that life is really too short for recriminations and regrets. Time is too precious to hoard and lock away with dark secrets. Love is too abundant to be contained and must flow like a river fit to burst its banks. Beauty and talent must be appreciated and shared in order to blossom and flourish.
I shall continue my journey now along a densely populated road offering me art, lace-making, music, Tai Chi and so much more. I bid a fond farewell to my travelling companions and wish you all a safe and pleasant road ahead. I thank you for keeping me company and sharing your wisdom and wit along the way and remind you that I am not far ahead so if you want to talk, just call out to me. You know where to find me.
Be Well, Be Safe and Feel the Love.
Warmly,
Devina
ps. I shall continue to share some postcards from my onward journey so do watch this space.
Allow me a little philosophical ramble.
For some days now I have been toying with the idea of making peace with my greatest enemy. arch-rival and protagonist in my current demise. It has been a cause for much investigation and analysis but, in the words of my childhood hero the truth is 'elementary my dear Watson.' It has been long in coming but I finally sit face to face in a meeting with the one person who has single-handedly re-shaped my life. I meet this person with no malice or animosity, fear or recrimination. I bear in my heart just the warm feeling of recognition and happily reach out a hand of friendship.
We spend sleepless hours looking for someone or something to hold responsible for all that has gone wrong in our lives, all the plans undone, the dreams shattered. We may give the accused the name of an individual, of fate and even of GOD. Surely,there has to a single cause for our woes that can be blamed for the chaos and disappointment we find ourselves facing!? But as I stand and look around myself today, I see no-one else to blame - No more reason to complain - Merely much to be thankful for and to celebrate.
I am struggling to find the words to describe this discovery but find myself drawn to the simplest and most over-used of them all and that is LOVE.
It has been said that in order to be loved by others you must first love yourself. Not in a narcissistic way but as person who is aware of the good within them and is confident of their power to do good.
I have found that in order to devote any more time and energy to my recovery I need to believe in myself again. Yes even to forgive and to love myself again.
I have discovered over the past 5 months of my journey of recovery from the stroke on 28th April 2014 that life is really too short for recriminations and regrets. Time is too precious to hoard and lock away with dark secrets. Love is too abundant to be contained and must flow like a river fit to burst its banks. Beauty and talent must be appreciated and shared in order to blossom and flourish.
I shall continue my journey now along a densely populated road offering me art, lace-making, music, Tai Chi and so much more. I bid a fond farewell to my travelling companions and wish you all a safe and pleasant road ahead. I thank you for keeping me company and sharing your wisdom and wit along the way and remind you that I am not far ahead so if you want to talk, just call out to me. You know where to find me.
Be Well, Be Safe and Feel the Love.
Warmly,
Devina
ps. I shall continue to share some postcards from my onward journey so do watch this space.
I too realize I have been the master of my own fate and that in order to recover I must put those things by the side accept the new me and continue on the road to recovery
ReplyDeleteIt is a Good Feeling isn't it, Sharyn? I wish you continuing success and clarity.
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