I have never been one to run away from a challenge. Give me a need and I shall try my utmost to fulfil it. Give me potential and I shall find a away to realise it. This tendency has, in the past made me feel invincible and indispensable both of which I now realise, were my misconceptions.
For events over the past few days have made me realise that I am neither. My physical body has called a halt to all ambitions that I may have had and my withdrawal from a heavy social and work calendar has been accommodated seamlessly as CSC chess classes have been covered by locums and my chess and Hindi clubs have gone on 'temporary' hold until I am recovered.
The social activities such as Samarpan Singing group & EKTA Womens Forum, which I so conscientiously devoted precious time & energies to sow seeds of & nurture are thriving in the hands of caretakers and good friends. I know now how my husband, a gardener at heart, feels when he sows his seeds, watches and nurtures the saplings and then has to leave his beloved plants in the care of a neighbour while we go on holiday, returning only to discover that they have thrived in his absence. Is that a slight 'PING' I hear ? A feeling of betrayal, of being unwanted & unmissed or is it relief? I cannot complain as I have received messages of love and appreciation in abundance and flowers to match and my greatest reward is to see them flourish.
So what are my latest challenges?
For events over the past few days have made me realise that I am neither. My physical body has called a halt to all ambitions that I may have had and my withdrawal from a heavy social and work calendar has been accommodated seamlessly as CSC chess classes have been covered by locums and my chess and Hindi clubs have gone on 'temporary' hold until I am recovered.
The social activities such as Samarpan Singing group & EKTA Womens Forum, which I so conscientiously devoted precious time & energies to sow seeds of & nurture are thriving in the hands of caretakers and good friends. I know now how my husband, a gardener at heart, feels when he sows his seeds, watches and nurtures the saplings and then has to leave his beloved plants in the care of a neighbour while we go on holiday, returning only to discover that they have thrived in his absence. Is that a slight 'PING' I hear ? A feeling of betrayal, of being unwanted & unmissed or is it relief? I cannot complain as I have received messages of love and appreciation in abundance and flowers to match and my greatest reward is to see them flourish.
So what are my latest challenges?
- Challenge 1: remembering to take my 11 tablets/day- Solution- A daily pill box
- Challenge 2: extreme Fatigue & lack of stamina -
- Solution - Don't fight it- rest when needed and without guilt.
- Challenge 3: Busy and overactive mind Solution- Harness those thoughts with controlled and creative activities and distractions. These include- writing this BLOG, weekly Tai Chi, Music and art sessions, and excavating my study - All at a very gentle pace.
- Challenge 4: Disappointment - Solution: Lower your expectations
Most importantly, I must remember to be grateful for all that I have and for the grace of good friends and neighbours who have neither forgotten nor neglected me.
In this respect, I am a very fortunate and wealthy woman.
Illustration 2:' Peace in a Wildflower Meadow-' My Art Class- DR
Illustration 2:' Peace in a Wildflower Meadow-' My Art Class- DR
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